Wow. It's been a long time.

Many many things are different since I wrote on here. I'm halfway done senior year. I was accepted to college! I made friends. I lost friends. I changed. I grew. I lived.

I think that's the important thing. Through good and bad, I lived. I experienced life. A lot of it was the best life has to offer. Some of it was the worst life has to offer. But I lived it all.

Music: Lil Wayne, Kanye West, Cartel, T.I.

Books: Not too many actually

Movies: The Dark Knight, Hancock

TV: House, One Tree Hill, The Real World

Sometimes I wonder how it's possible to change this much. But I guess it is.

"Love, live life, proceed, progress"

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You'll find my stuff there way more than you will here. Give it a read sometime. All honesty. No sugarcoating.

Today I was informed that people actually read this. Perhaps I'll keep up a little more than I have been.


It's 2008. This year I'll be a senior. That's so wierd to think about. I never really imagined high school when I was younger, but this is better than I could ever imagine it!


Today, I had a really good time. Molly, Michelle, David, and I went to Texas Roadhouse after church for lunch, and Pat met us there. It was so much fun! I love hanging out with chill people that I don't need to feel anxious about. I love being able to have silences that aren't awkward. Absolutely love it.

I just figured out how to put music onto my new phone. I'm rather excited.

Holiday build up drives me crazy. Holidays are actually very nice.

That's all.

As my friend pointed out...it's been a month. Update? I got a job at Pizza Hut and I'm working 22 hours this weekend. I got my license and drove in the snow. My computer is finally fixed. I really don't know what else to say. Life remains in a very good place. I'm very happy. Very content. That is rare, I think. Very few people seem to be content.

Today we got out of school early because of snow. I had a little bit of time to waste in the afternoon, so I was doing a bit of reflecting on life. I tend to do that at night when I can't sleep...but I've been sleeping at decent hours of the night recently. Every night for the past week and a half I've had a nightmare, though. I usually don't dream, and then all of the sudden it's been 10 nights in a row. I think that's odd, and I don't know what it means. I love how ancient cultures saw dreams and nightmares as omens, and we as Americans just see them as something that's so whatever it doesn't even matter. Perhaps they are significant.

I love life right now. It's absolutely ridiculous. I don't think I've ever been happier than I've been recently. Even with the grounding...it's not even a big deal. I just love things the way they are. And I get my license soon...so that's awesome and will make it even easier to enjoy life! Ahh. I ABSOLUTELY love it.

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I just watched The United States of Leland. It's an EXCELLENT film, and I'd reccomend it to anyone in a heartbeat. It definitely will not leave you feeling all happy at the end of the movie, but it will make you question how you view the world. The main character, Leland P. Fitzgerald, is arrested for stabbing a mentally handicapped boy to death. The film then explores his stay in prison, where he interacts with a teacher at the prison and the two challenge each other, and events leading up to and following the stabbing of the boy. Usually, a film like this wouldn't really hold my attention, but the way the script writer went about some of the narration was too good to pass by. Check this out.
"I think there are two ways you can see the world. You either see the sadness that's behind everything or you choose to keep it all out."

"The worst part is knowing that there is goodness in people. Mostly it stays deep down and buried. Maybe we don't have God because we're scared of the bad stuff. Maybe we're really scared of the good stuff. Because if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted. So when we do bad things, it'd be because we want to or because we have to. Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind us what the good stuff is in the first place." (both from) -The United States of Leland

Whoever wrote that script sees the world in a way very similar to me. The first quote is very similar to what I tell people on a daily basis. You can't just run around in life and look at all of the good things, all of the beautiful things, all of the fun things. At one point or another you're going to have to accept that there are bad things and look at them, too. That's being realistic. When you see the things that are so wrong with this word.

"...if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted."

Exactly.
I don't even know. Thoughts?